Dear Life,

Was there not a less painful way of telling me that I do not deserve certain things ?

Best regards
Yours entirely

Last Night

Last night I could not sleep. I closed my eyes but I could not sleep

I missed you ... missed you very much ... missed you till it hurt ..It still hurts..

I wanted to hold you ... hold you close ...

I cried ... Sorry ... cried because you are not there now ...

I tried to call you to me ... but the distances are too much now

I prayed for you ... I always do ...

I said 'I Love You' ...I said it twice and then I was silent.
Last night I was silent... but I could not sleep

Please take these pieces ... they are all yours

It was mine. I gave it to you ... you kept it well

but then I broke it ... I am sorry !

I know they are of no use ... but they are all yours

Death should be easier ... I miss you

Roshni kho rahi hai ab andheron ki gehrayion mein

Dil mein utha hai ek dard...

Zindagi se hai ek gila

Muskura ke dube suraj keh raha hai mujhse

'Uske bin jeeni hai jab zindagi,,,shukr kar...

...ek aur din dhal chala'

3:55 AM

him: I saw a building and a train moving on the tracks…not too fast…There were horses bolting besides the train. I don’t know why the horses were so damn slow …they just couldn’t outrun that stupid train…arghhh ! (grunts in a low voice)

her : And..

him: and…(jarring disturbance over the phone line)…and I saw you…standing there. Staring away at something invisible…non existing maybe…

her : hmmm…

him: hmm…I see the curve of your lip roll up into a smile. It hangs on your face for a long moment and then vanishes….then your face vanishes. You stay there but your face vanishes. It just does…how ? I just don’t know

her : (sighs, pauses and then yawns)

him: you must sleep…

her : (in a very low voice) no…please continue…what else did you see ?

him : There was dark scary lane…it seemed someone was inside it who didn’t seem scary but did not move…and…(hears a soft sigh on the other end of the phone)…you there ?

him : (hears another sigh and then mild snoring) Must be asleep (mumbles…and then sniffles) Good night… (follows with a sigh)

(Hangs up the phone. Turns over on his side. Stays awake )

‘Why were the horses so ridiculously slow ? ’

Last night I saw US living together forever. It had to be a dream or some other world. Reality is not meant for that. Trust me though, US is beautiful …pure and true. Let me tell you about US …US has a cherubic smile. It smiles from the heart…from it’s contended, loving heart with all longings satisfied expect the longing to find more love within… Ah ! speaking of love…US aces love. Amazingly, US can love in thousand ways every moment and when they are done it can love in thousand other ways the next moment. Such is US’ remarkable capacity to love that it loves everything and everyone, even those that you and me can only loathe.

US has a harmonious voice which has the melody of all the music that ever is. US sings the best love ballads to itself. US can dance as well ! You can see US’ dance even in Reality. The drops of rain falling from the sky dance like US. The winds in the mountains dance like US and so does the moonlight on a lake’s waters. US is warm like the winter sun and is hopeful like the maiden rains of summer. US is intoxicated like kissing lovers.US has the softest touch like the velvet caress of a feather. US has eyes but is blind to despair, hatred, vengeance and vanity.

US is calm but playful in its ways. US is afraid of Time as Time is capable of taking US to places which it doesn’t want to go…make it do things it doesn’t want to do...so, US is scared of Time but it is happy that Time lives in Reality away from US. US said that it knows you and me and also said that before it was US it was just like you and me !

Amazing isn’t it ?

US is very patient. It can wait and endure seemingly endless hardships. It said that patience sees it through hard times and testing situations. Not everyone loves US but US has nothing against them US said that it had been through fights within itself too but always manages to resolve them. Love helps it to find truce to its conflicts, it admitted.

When I asked US if it can ever come to Reality it smiled and said for US wherever it is that is Reality. I was silenced by the reply. US went silent too but smiled.

Virgin Kiss

Let me kiss you when the moon is in it’s cloudy veil ?
Or may I kiss you when the surges swell ?
A kiss when the mighty sun is soft…
or a kiss when blossoms on breeze waft.
Can I kiss you where the sparkles flow
or can I kiss you when a million fireflies glow

A kiss that lights the stars in the dark
A kiss that makes miracles spark.
Let me kiss you with such delicate passion...
Kiss you for the sweet sensation…
I wonder ….our kiss can stop the ages…
A kiss that shall create eternal images.

A kiss to bring our souls so closer…
One that shall seal us together forever.
A kiss whose memories shall never die.
A kiss that will survive beyond Good Bye.
Let this virgin kiss in our heart fondly stay..
…till we live our final day.