Ek din jab mujhe tanha dekhoge
afsosh na karna ki hum saath ho sakte the

Afsosh toh hum karte hain ki hum ji rahe hain
Sochte hain ki tum meri zindagi ho sakte the

khud ko kaid kar liya hai maine tum me
jab saaare asmaan mere ghar ho sakte the

Dard ki aah rooth ke aati nahi labh pe
Kehte hain hum bhi aaj muskaan ho sakte the

Dear Life,

Was there not a less painful way of telling me that I do not deserve certain things ?

Best regards
Yours entirely

Last Night

Last night I could not sleep. I closed my eyes but I could not sleep

I missed you ... missed you very much ... missed you till it hurt ..It still hurts..

I wanted to hold you ... hold you close ...

I cried ... Sorry ... cried because you are not there now ...

I tried to call you to me ... but the distances are too much now

I prayed for you ... I always do ...

I said 'I Love You' ...I said it twice and then I was silent.
Last night I was silent... but I could not sleep

Please take these pieces ... they are all yours

It was mine. I gave it to you ... you kept it well

but then I broke it ... I am sorry !

I know they are of no use ... but they are all yours

Death should be easier ... I miss you

Roshni kho rahi hai ab andheron ki gehrayion mein

Dil mein utha hai ek dard...

Zindagi se hai ek gila

Muskura ke dube suraj keh raha hai mujhse

'Uske bin jeeni hai jab zindagi,,,shukr kar...

...ek aur din dhal chala'

3:55 AM

him: I saw a building and a train moving on the tracks…not too fast…There were horses bolting besides the train. I don’t know why the horses were so damn slow …they just couldn’t outrun that stupid train…arghhh ! (grunts in a low voice)

her : And..

him: and…(jarring disturbance over the phone line)…and I saw you…standing there. Staring away at something invisible…non existing maybe…

her : hmmm…

him: hmm…I see the curve of your lip roll up into a smile. It hangs on your face for a long moment and then vanishes….then your face vanishes. You stay there but your face vanishes. It just does…how ? I just don’t know

her : (sighs, pauses and then yawns)

him: you must sleep…

her : (in a very low voice) no…please continue…what else did you see ?

him : There was dark scary lane…it seemed someone was inside it who didn’t seem scary but did not move…and…(hears a soft sigh on the other end of the phone)…you there ?

him : (hears another sigh and then mild snoring) Must be asleep (mumbles…and then sniffles) Good night… (follows with a sigh)

(Hangs up the phone. Turns over on his side. Stays awake )

‘Why were the horses so ridiculously slow ? ’