30 mins with you

The seemingly harsh rays of the sun shone on her imparting her that divine glow.She wilted in discomfort and snuggled up closer seeking solace in my embrace.Her silky curls kissed my chin,another brush with divinity.I slowly removed those strands that hung over her face revealing that indolent radiance emanating from her eyes...I took her delicate hands in mine and my fingers began drawing various patterns on the lithe skin on them.She chuckled playfully in response to the tickle,that nectar like timbre dissolved in me satiating innumerable desires.

A gentle breeze made it’s way into the room as the sun prepared to pack up after shimmering all through the long winter day.she trembled submissively as the chill even made me cuddle upto her.I protectively ensheilded her.She languidly reached out for the steaming coffee and sipped from the mug a couple of times still reclined more on me than on the bed unaware of the gaze of admiration with which I followed her every movement all the while.I sneaked out slowly and knelt beside her with a bottle of nail paint and smeared yet another coat on her toe nails...”she will manage to spoil them soon”,I murmured to myself and a smile unpretentiously adorned my lips.She turned and I drew close to rest my head on her lap...”are the heavens more snug?”.
Still lying calm and stationary I hummed the blissful tune to myself as the jingle of the A R Rahman composition sailed along from the music player...’hum hai iss pal yahan...’.

Don’t you see what you have done to me?
Don’t you see how I have changed?

I waltz in the rain
I gaze at stars
I smile at strangers every now and then
I hop on stairs

Don’t you see what you have done to me?
Don’t you see how I have changed?

I walk alone on untrodden paths
I halt and sometimes talk to the air
I scribble your name on lil’ scraps
I treasure your stuff with utmost care

Don’t you see what you have done to me?
Don’t you see how I have changed?

I love the sense of your thought in my head
I like the feel of your name on my lips
It’s funny how I cherish your presence even in your absence
You are my existence now

I dream you…I wish you
I live you now.


Don’t you see what you have done to me?
Don’t you see how I have changed?

I don’t love you like I loved you yesterday
I love you more
I have to admit…..I really do.

UNLOVED

Main ta jiya na mara
Hai bebas main ki kara

Dil jude bina hi tut gaye
Hath mile bina hi chuth gaye
Ki likhane lekha kismat ne

Baar baar rod ankhiyan
Tenu jo na wekh sakiyan
Ko le aaye yaar kudrat ne

Kata main kiwe din
Teri sau tere bin

Main to jiya na mara...

Courtesy:jag soona lage(om shanti om)

...ON A LIGHTER NOTE

People read my blog and I am extremely thankful to them for that since they dedicate time from their busy lives to me and I am really grateful to them for that coz' time is the most dearest entity one can ever offer another (though I sometimes pester my beautiful readers to actually visit my blog and read my posts and then they just have to do it.poor things!!) but there's something I need to let out to you people,the content of my blog does not neccessarily reflect my life...I mean a lot of thought on countless 'alternate universes','the dead-ends of life',

'the roads not taken' and a hell lot of other things go in making of my ramblings.I hope my dear readers get this.so please read on...

thank you again.

TEN THINGS I LOVE ABOUT YOU

I love you for the hopes and dreams my heart had fondly weaved at your glorious advent.

I love you for the magnitude to which I miss those sensuous springs,those snug winters,those soothing showers and most of all ‘you’.

I love you for all the lovely memories of the moments we spent as ‘ONE’.

I love you for the glimmer that your glimpse brings to my eyes and the gloom that shrouds when the thought of never being able to be your’s crosses me.

I love you for the pretensions of concern you were so good at.

I love you for the deceit you inflicted on my heart.

I love you for the infinities of solitude in which I now dwell.

I love you for the torment which I bear and the distrust which I now nurture.

I love you for the excruciating way you made me comprehend that life is not always fair.

I love you for your love that never was...

Why do we get hurt?I have mused over this question for quite sometime now.The amount of heartbreaks I see around me presents a much more sorrier sight than the relief and the happiness in the contented hearts...so what is it that actually causes a heartbreak?many days of introspection and silent pondering I have probably figured it out...it’s expectation.it is the expectation,it is what we desire from a certain relationship that attaches the element of pain onto it.the people involved don’t manage to live upto each other’s expectation,things start going awry and before even realization can dawn on one’s consideration the damage inflicted on the relationship is irrepairable.
Maybe,one of my friend’s approach to deal with relationships is the best.he believes that no matter how dear a person is to you there must still exist some “distance”(if he is to be quoted) between them.this would give each their own “space” and then you can be bonded warmly into any relationship without risking your emotional health.it’s true probably...so the bottomline is
for the sake of smooth blossoming of any relation

we should not venture into it’s forbidden lengths.

keep expectations out of the question and

enjoy every little sweetness that any association has to offer.

....Easier said than done though

Thank GOD

I lay on my bed practically motionless as the night drew to it’s ends,staring outside through the windows waiting for the morning sun’s virgin raysto peep in.I generally prefer to doze off early as I feel that it keeps my circadian rhythms proper.but somehow though strangely enough I had stayed up for long on this particular night.really irksome moments whem you wait for something and the wait seems to be extending for eons.all kind of thoughts had traversed my mind starting from the usual chaotic life in hostel to major incidents which have proved so pivotal that my life,my existence and my mentality would have been so much different without them.thoughts springing up from unknown crevices of my psyche which I never thought existed making me wander through times past and present,wonder over events large or simply insignifact,mulling over issues which have shaped my charecter and rationality,I finally decided to thank GOD !!...what followed as a result of this decision was worthy of an entry in this blog which is supposed to reflect me.

I thank god for allowing me to be a part of his creation.
For the loving family to which I was born.
For the carefree years of childhood.
For the friends who walked with me through various crossroads of life so far
For the pain and suffering inflicted cause they made me stronger and reinforced my faith in you.
For the follies and pitfalls which you made me evade.
For the incidents which made me think,think,think and think some more without being able to conclude any reasons for their occurrence.
For the people whom I met and interacted and understood to avoid others of the same kind.
For making me feel the warmth and compassion which some really important people lavish on me.
For teaching me to accept defeat.
For teaching me to accept success.
For the extremes of emotions which have made moderation possible in me.
For making me realize the worth of parents.
For the moments of silence within which help me recognize myself.
For the harshness that made me realize that life is not a cakewalk.
For the memories which I treasure.
For the wins which made me confident and the failures which kept me modest.
For the beauty in everything you created and for the occasional eye to admire it.
For the few special people who have inspired sea changes in my perception.
For all the ‘things gone wrong’ which actually set many things right.
For the people I shall adore no matter what.
For the questions you never answer.
For the answers which required no questions.
For the patience and integrity that keep being strengthened.


...I could have gone on and on and on...probably forever but somehow had fallen asleep somewhere in the middle of this untimely thanksgiving.thanks again GOD for respite from this bizarre insomnia
I woke up late the next day and still in bed smiled at myself and uttered aloud “Thank you,GOD”.