Winter

She walked away through the tortuous path with inert steps Her lithe silhouette gradually dissolving in the dark mist that had crept in to the garden and overhung the place. The sky, at dusk, had donned a hue of trampled lilacs. At this hour the vicinity registered, apart from his grim presence, nothing but a deathly silence. Reality sank in as he waved his arm hesitatingly and tried to utter a desperate cry beseeching her to stop….but the sounds froze on his lips. The only sound that were discernible were the rustle of dry dioscorea leaves on the xanthous dessicated turf and the occasional clank of a blacksmith’s hammer pounding relentlessly on smelted cast from a distance.

A sharp north westerly swept across the plane and slapped his cheek freezing the drops that had rolled down from his eyes. He was broken, mute and rooted .A chilling darkness had ominously encroached upon the garden rendering everything that once stood bright and gleeful into obscure and stygian shadows…..Thus, some day in January ended into a bleak nightfall…Loose ends recklessly left to pine….

…Winter lingered on.

The Freeway

He raced past another milestone.His fingers breezing on the steer wheel as the wind whistled past his ears. The huge sun sinking beneath an unnumbered horizon left the entire basin awash with mellow orange, promising to dawn in hope. The dull stench of the loamy top soil typical to the region entered him intermittently.

He kept smiling to himself all the while. .There were no fetters now No frets either. People, few of whom mattered, had approved…the rest frowned, cursed and raised eyebrows. None of this made sense now. He had ,anyways, left all of them behind.

He had now arrived at that lonely stretch of the highway where very few commuters would bother to accompany.

He again whizzed past yet another milestone. Thoughts of his sweetheart and life (whatever was left of it) with her left his heart warm and peaceful.



The door creaked open as she, still standing tall, carried herself out into the dusk and stood leering into the distance longingly...awaiting him.

The Stranger I am

It was gaining ground within me. Every passing day it spread its menacing roots deeper. The angst was gnawing at my convictions. From each of my actions , shrieked an echo of the clamor concussing me from the very touchstone of all things that I stood for.

The cause of this slow but sure cataclysm, however, was somehow undeterminable. I was unsure, shaky and, worst of all, aware of the impending upheaval . I ransacked my entire being but all I managed to find was a strange void engulfing me inside out. Scared that I won’t be able to endure this inexplicable change all the more with the weight of a jeopardized ego bearing down upon me …. I panicked, grew impatient and all it did was nourish this row being raged within me.

My existence had been reduced to a perfunctory drudge.. People saw me, met me and interacted with me but failed to perceive this shadow which had interlaced deep into me. I was dragging my schism shredded ramshackled fragments on the face of the earth with a lost sense of purpose…

The Scream : Painting by Edward Munch

LUST LUST LUST

My mind convicts me…
….for the treason…the deceit…
Hope is delirious..faith is forfeit..

Lust is all that I had….
Lust is all that I gave…

….I expect no mercy…
I expect no acquit….
…..The deeds of my rage…
….now shall He avenge…

The lust for gems…the lust for the sword..
The lust for life…..the lust shall corrode.
With a soul compromised
And a heart disdained
When nothing else stayed
….My lust still swayed

Lust is all that I had…Lust is all that I gave…

''karmaņy evā ‘dhikāras te
mā phalesu kadācana
mā karmaphalahetur bhūr
ma te saňgo ‘stv akarmaņi''

To action alone has thou a right and never at all to its fruits; let not the fruits of action be thy motive; neither let there be in thee any attachment to inaction

It’s that time of the year again

It’s that time of the year again

Of falling leaves and failing dreams
…kisses and scorns.hugs and severance

Cries and sighs….fits of joy..
Setting suns and hopes afloat…..
‘'Things will change'’….but they never do….
Life seems complete …..missing you….

Of Calm seas….of the turmoils within
The ghost touch, the warmth …. the intimacy
…murky hallways ..forlorn with grief
Twinkling mirth…..fading desires
Zephyrs monstering into storms
…..of the smothering reds
……and the longing blues

Promises unkept….words unsaid….deeds undone
….phantoms in silence….shadows in the dark
Of drying tears and echoing scoffs…


……There will be another year….another winter….another spring…..another smile
………..another sob….
……There will never be another you….


Aaah yes……Happy Valentine’s Day

When You LOVE someone....

Pal pal dil ke paas tum rehti ho

It’s in your absence that I feel you the most.your thoughts make me realize your worth….you soothe me, calm me…..complete me….liberate me.
I need you more than the breath of air, the grain of food, the drop of water and the grace of GOD.

Kahin toh hogi woh duniya jahan tu mere paas hai...

I miss you every moment….every moment of my life craves for your presence.desires,wishes,thoughts and prayers long for you…..can I ever hold you in my arms ?…. can you ever be mine?

Tu bin bataye mujhe le chal kahin....

As we walk hand in hand…..the lonely sun sulks and sinks beneath the purview emanating that bewitching scarlet glow which bathes the lush meadows igniting flaming desires in my heart….words you utter melt in my ears ,turn to music and leave my heart swaying to your tunes….you lead me on these paths to my destination …..you lead me to myself.

Tum se hi....

My days begin reminiscing your smile .... and your giggles ringing in my ears…..your glow makes the sun shine all day and evenings greet your charming grace…..my life is nothing but an ode to your innocence…..my existence-a homage to your love.

Dil de diya hai…jaan tumhe denge

Let me say…...”I am sorry”…
For the times when I had hurt you…when I had disbelieved you.
Forgive me for the pain I caused to your heart,
for the callousness with which I crushed your care…..and for simply being unable to repay your boundless love……

Aae kash ke hum hosh mein naa aane pain…

Let this reverie of love last for ever…..cause I fear….I might lose you
If this be a delusion then let reality never dawn on me lest dismal distances part us
Let these showers of ardent affection never cease....let the harmony of your love bless me…..forever.